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PAIN

Wed, 03 Jan 2007 12:42:44 GMT

"When I'm Gone"

[Introduction]
Yeah...
It's my life...
My own words I guess...

[Verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you, despite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around in that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 2]
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

[Chorus/Outro]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 02:29:34 GMT

Gmail is my best friend.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
every thing
on our own
we don't need
anything
or anyone

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world

i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel

those three words
are said too much
they're not enough

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life

let's waste time chasing cars
around our heads
i need your grace
to remind me
to find my own

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world

forget what we're told
before we get too old
show me a garden
thats bursting into life

all that i am
all that i ever was
its here in your perfect eyes
they're all i can see
i don't know where
confused about how as well
sure that these things
will never change for us at all

if i lay here,
if i just lay here,
would you lie with me,
and just forget the world

Friday, September 15, 2006

Fri, 15 Sep 2006 16:47:15 GMT

Just came back from the movie "the Banquet". Personally i don't like it at all. Apart from these bloody scenes, are the ridiculously funny lines. A lot of ppl said it's good. But maybe it's just not my type.

Suddenly feel so sick, wanna throw up...

Monday, September 11, 2006

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 14:18:28 GMT

I need endless power and stamina and encouragement and determination and everything that can cheer me up cuz i'm on the edge of breaking down.

But no worriez about me. I'll be fine soon i'm sure. Just let me get this week over.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 11:45:21 GMT

Both of us are getting busy and suddenly miss u like hell...

Happy Birthday

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 04:39:18 GMT

BIG DAY for my little fish!!!!!!!!!!!! Happy Birthday, dear!!!

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY

Nothing to Lose

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 06:33:02 GMT

I shouldn't fear anything.
Most importantly i shouldn't start grieving for the things i haven't yet lost becuz that's stupid.
I need to stay confident, stay positive for myself cuz no one can stop me from being happy.
If someone lets me down then he or she's the one to blame.
I dare try anything.
I have nothing to lose.
There's nothing i can't live without in my life.

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Then it's time and i'm ready to start a new life.

Sat. Nite Partie

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 06:22:32 GMT

Thx dear for the flower and i really enjoyed sat. nite's partie.

down down down...

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 10:52:05 GMT

Ayiiiiii

My health condition's not so good these days. Haven't slept well for almost 5 days now. (thanks to the Ocamp) Still too much stuf on my mind, feel very tensed~Plus my stomachache is nearly killing me. It just won't go away no matter how many pills i take.

My mind seriously needs to relax...

Perfect Morning

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 09:44:59 GMT

Love walking up along Centre Street alone early in the morning after kissing DSS goodbye to work. It used to make me tired out. But now i really like this stair-walking exercise, to see all kinds of ppl rushing through around me, Philippine maids in groups, office workers sweating in suits, old ppl with their pets. Usually i just grab a small box of lemon tea, walk all the way to campus, sit in Starbucks eating my favorite salmon sandwich with short latte and scan some headlines of the newspaper. And when i reach the hall, it's still not yet 10 a.m. and most ppl are still in their dream. Gaining such perfect mornings always cheers me up.

Life is good^^